Sometimes, I don’t feel Christian.
There. It has been said. Something a lot of us think at times, but won’t dear vocalize.
Maybe it is because we are afraid others will judge us. Or that we are in horrible sin. Either way, we don’t feel it.
I struggled for a long time with the reason. Questioned my salvation because of it. Until I really looked at the heart of the matter- and realized that the heart was truly what was the matter.
Often, our hearts are what are making us not feel Christian. It is the harbor house of sin in our life. It is where sin starts. Sin starts with a thought – we usually don’t just dive into it without thinking. From our thoughts, it becomes a desire. A lust of the flesh, a lust of the eyes, or maybe a desire for the pride of life. No matter which one, it becomes a desire rooted in our hearts. Then, it becomes an action.
When those things are happening in our lives, we begin to wonder what is going on. What is wrong with us that sin is running in our lives.
We don’t feel like a Chrisitan. Thankfully, our salvation isn’t rooted in feeling – it is rooted in fact.
When we don’t feel like a Christian – Satan is using our feelings in a way that they were never intended to be used. He is using them to make us doubt and question. When we are doubting or questioning our salvation, we often stop fighting the battle. We get out of the Word of God. We give into the desires of our flesh. We drop from the battle – and then, we have given him the place of victory Christ died for.
This isn’t to say everyone who feels like they are lost are saved. Yet, if we know that we have placed our faith and trust in the Almighty God, that we have surrendered our life for His – if we have knowing hope that we are free from sin – then our feelings don’t undo what Christ has done on the cross and in our hearts.
What do we do when we don’t “feel” it anymore?
- Dig in deeper – The times I have felt like I was losing – that I didn’t feel Christian- have taught me that I need to dig deeper into the Word of God. Digging deeper brings back my hunger for His Word. The Word begins to shift me, and points out the areas where I am allowing sin to control me.
- Confess sin – Get the unconfessed sin out of our lives. Tell God where we are wrong- He knows anyways. Just like our children need to tell us the truth about the wrong they did to get back into right relationship with us, we need to confess our wrong doing to God and allow His forgiveness to wash fresh over us.
- Clear out distraction – The biggest thing I have noticed when I am not “feeling” Christian is that I am not living it out. I have allowed the desires of this world to come in and distract me from the things that God wants me to be doing. Maybe I am watching too much television, listening to secular music or not fellowshipping with the Body of Christ. I begin to work those things back into my life – and take out the things that are pulling me away from my relatiosnhip with Him.
Just like in any relationship, there are going to be times when we don’t “feel” it. That doesn’t mean we quit. It is those moments that we push in, dig deep and fight the hardest.
Worshiping With My Life,
Mandy is passionate about two things: The Word of God and the Souls of Men (and Ladies!). She is a married to her best friend, and gets the privilege to love on their three blessings (who lost their biological momma leaving her husband widowed).She loves that the Lord has let her life be an example of delighting in Him and watching Him mold her life to make her desires match His. She spent 9 years in an early childhood classroom, and 4 years in an “in house” seminary program at her home church. She loves to bring God glory through her roles as Christ-follower, Wife and Mother (in that order!) She enjoys women’s ministry, cooking, crafting, and traveling the world. Mandy is also passionate about Adoption and helping women with Infertility- as both are areas God has trusted her with. Her greatest desires are to have her marriage bring God ultimate glory, see her children walk in truth, to lead others to the feet of Jesus, and to lead women into deeper and intimate relationship with their Savior through study of the Word of God. You can find her at Worshipful Living and on – Facebook, Twitter, Pinterest and Instagram.