Number 2 – Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears.
- Spiders! This is a huge fear that has caused me great anguish over the years. When I was young, someone played jokes on me with spiders and I’ve been terrified ever since. I can not explain the paralyzing fear that comes when I simply glimpse a shadow that I think could have been a spider. Actually, here’s a story: When I was working at Adventure Church, I was walking down the hallway during a sermon when I noticed a bookcase was moved from it’s normal spot. Thinking that odd, I decided to move it back to it’s original setting and then I turned around to walk past that area again. I froze. On the wall was a huge black spider, about 3 inches in diameter (including the legs) and I couldn’t move. A friend of mine, who was also on staff, came out of the tech booth door and asked me what was the matter, that’s when he saw the spider and immediately exclaimed, “COOL!!” and went back in his office. Meanwhile, I’m standing there about to hyperventilate. He came back out with a jar and somehow got the spider off the wall, that’s when we learned it was a black widow because he was inspecting it in the jar. I, indeed, started hyperventilating and the security guys had to call paramedics. I ended up being on oxygen for an hour until my breathing returned to normal. I can’t even handle toy spiders, don’t play with me with spiders. It will not end well for anyone.
- Death or serious injury/health problems with you kids or your dad. I really struggle sometimes trusting God with my family’s wellbeing. I want to do everything in my power to ensure that nothing bad will happen to any of you, which makes me somewhat suffocating or
paranoidsuper-observant of any suspicious activity in the vicinity. It’s exhausting and I’m still learning to trust that God is sovereign and nothing can happen without His knowing and allowing it. This scenario popping in my mind sometimes makes me wonder how I might handle things (particularly God) if something should happen. But there I go again, trying to control things, even my potential reaction when nothing’s even happened! See, huge fear and huge struggle. I do selfishlypray against it every day though and I’m thankful that He has answered that prayer so far.
- Something like the above happening to my sister. Katie is my best friend, we’ve been closer than close our entire lives – I guess that’s what being a twin is partially about. We’ve been each other’s protector, confidant, accountability, and friend since we were born. I sometimes think a huge chunk of me would literally be missing if she weren’t around. #2 & #3 have given me a lot of nightmares over the years… I’m still learning to trust God with the people I love so much I suppose.
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