Number 19 – How did you feel the moment you became a parent?
I am going to be honest, it took me time to get my legs under me after becoming a parent. When we found out we were expecting, I was super excited. I had a longstanding exhilaration and planned how to do the nursery and gazed over baby clothes and car seats, etc. We were so thrilled and continued to be. Perhaps the birthing experience was just a traumatic one or our issues with breastfeeding were overshadowing things, but once Claire came I still had all this love and thrill but I was also flooded with feelings of inadequacy in my abilities and whether I was prepared for it. I was now responsible for a little human being and I didn’t know how to handle the weight of that responsibility, (I wrote about it here). I guess all that to say is that I felt like I couldn’t love her more, but I was scared out of my mind about what that meant.
I’m thankful that as time kept going, I kept praying and God kept answering. It took about 6 weeks before I really felt comfortable being a mommy, and the feelings of hardship went away to be replaced by a loose idea of what was gong on and what was expected of me. We got to a point where I really felt like a mommy and it was no longer a surreal thing. We grew together into a new world and a new way of doing everything. I wouldn’t change a thing! I love these two kids deeper than I thought possible. Parenting them is a privilege and an honor, I’m blessed that God made me their mommy!
Would you like to participate in the “30 Things” series?
There is a link party on the index page of this series, you can add your link at any time this month. I would truly enjoy reading about you!